Friday, 15 August 2014

Getting used to a different life.

Since my cancer was first diagnosed I have had to face many changes in my life.I was sure it was only something temporary and after several chemo sessions it would be gone and life resumed as it was before. I now know I will have paliative care for the rest of my life. I found it difficult to accept partly because I feel I have little control over anything,I get extremly tired,the side effects of the chemo can make me nervous about going out and I try to get out of doing so whenever I can , I know its  rediculous and unfair  for Tony.My hair is growing back but where as I was blonde and straight it is now a mix of white, grey, blonde and curly.When I catch sight of myself in the mirror I  can't believe its me  . I am so very glad to have good friends who call in when they can and often we end up laughing about things.A very necessary tonic.


  1. I just found your blog. I am so sorry for the tough times you have been through and may be worried about in the future. I am sure your Tony is happy to take loving good care of you! I pray you will enjoy many wonderful and joyful moments and times with your friends and famil

  2. Good to have friends around you at a time when you are having to accept so many different things. I hope when you have the energy you allow yourself to do some of the things that you want to do. x

  3. I was so delighted that you posted again, Jill. I'm so glad that you have good friends during all of this. Tony is such a blessing in your life also. I didn't know you had blonde hair. Summer is almost over here in California, and Autumn is on its way. So good to visit with you again.


  4. Dear Jill just thinking of you. Hope you are still able to create your beautiful art .

  5. helloh jill, are you up and about again?do hope so best wishs for the new yearlove tina

  6. I'm so sorry I didn't get here sooner to wish you all the best for 2015!

    Sending big hugs your way,

  7. Hi, Really great effort. Everyone must read this article. Thanks for sharing.


  8. My Jill sadly passed away on 11th.January 2016 after a long battle with cancer. This is my poem to her.
    It’s Time To Say Goodbye
    An angel came into my life
    but should have stayed much longer.
    She gave me hope and happiness when,
    weak, she made me stronger.

    This angel of beauty and loveliness,
    brought sunshine to my soul.
    Where once was dark, and discord,
    her smile filled life’s dark hole.

    Wherever you’ve gone my loveliness
    I hope you’ll rest In peace,
    and wait for me in that far off place
    so once again, my pain can cease.

    So, it’s time to say goodbye my lovely
    and please forgive my tears.
    My heart is weak with sadness but,
    lastly, thank you Jill for those sixteen
    wonderful years.


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