Sunday 6 October 2013

I have felt  different this week,still the heavyness the tiredness gives me but I know it is completly normal.I have done so much this week and realised my head is full of ideas once more instead of
empty all the time.Its as if knowing tomorrow I will have my last chemo has freed me up somehow.I am dreading it but just maybe it will be problem free for the first time.
As soon as those first 5 days are over when I know I will feel grim
I am looking forward to changing the side panels on this blog then taking lots of photos. I have masses of lace and ribbons and have begun to measure it and sort it so Tony can put it on eBay for me.
I need to try to make a few dolls for a christmas sale if I can. I have walked in the wood a few times and it is very beautiful,full of ferns and copper coloured falling leaves,several neatly stacked piles of wood ready for the winter and of course the big white duck swimming on the Lavoir. He, we have realised is a she and seems to have no inclination to go as have the two previous ducks that spent time here.I am very happy about it because we and the village children get great pleasure from her.
I had another Reiki session today and was told there was a block around my heart which stemmed from low self esteem and if I just thought about how many people have visited me and so many other kind, kind people  who have taken time to wish me well it was about time I realised and  raised my self esteem.I will try.

5 comments:

  1. Dear Jill......I'm so glad that you're feeling more positive, but know just how difficult it can be. This damned disease knocks the stuffing out of you....and THEN you have to suffer the treatment!!
    Hang on in there.....it's almost over now...and there'll be LOTS of sunshine on the other side. x C

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  2. It's lovely to hear you are feeling more positive and making new plans for when your treatment's finished. Sending loads of positive thoughts to help you through the last bit.Lots of love and hugs to you dear Jill xxx

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  3. Jill,
    I got your card in the mail the other day, thank you so much. I love getting mail. A walk in the woods is so good for us from time to time. There are many unique things to see there and it is very peaceful. I am thinking of you today and sending my love.

    ~Sheri

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  4. Dear Jill,
    We have been away from Blogland and immersed in Facebook, so I was unaware of your illness! We think of you each day when we look at your charming doll that has pride of place in a chair in the upstair's hall. I think all the other dolls in our collection are quite envious of the red headed charmer from overseas! Your note arrived today and was much appreciated! Take special care of yourself dear! You are such a talented & special person & have touched so many people with your gentle words & sweet creations! We are saying prayers for your return to perfect health!
    Hugs right back to you,
    Sheila and Sherrill

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  5. Just wanted to pop on over and say hello. Thinking of you on this lovely October evening, and hoping you are in better health.

    Love,
    ~Sheri

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