Thursday, 14 November 2013

A world turned upside down for a while.

I was very calm and happy when I went for my last chemo session thinking it was all over.The session itself was the first one where nothing went wrong BUT when it was over the consultant came 
and sat on my bed and told me the 6 sessions of chemo had barely touched the tumour.I was very very shocked,I couldn't bear to hear it. But I did. I now have been given a 4 week respite to eat as many unhealthy foods as I can, I am having a blood transfusion once a week for 4 weeks and lots of other stuff.Then I have 2 scans early December and the following day meet up with the consultants to discuss what happens next. I have no idear how I will cope. I will of course have to but have been a misery for a while.I think its the loosing all control over your life which becomes 
dominated by the dreadful effects of the chemo.The one thing I do manage is to keep my journal going even though many pages are very shakey.I am more than grateful for friends who visit and my blogging friends.How I would survive without Tony I can't imagne,he continues to be amazing as do my daughters.

11 comments:

  1. I am so very sad for you and for your family. Thank you for being so honest with us. Kia kaha. Praying for you all.

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  2. I'm so sorry to hear all this Jill. It just never ends does it.

    Sending a big hug and healing vibes...

    x Chris

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  3. Oh, Jill, That is so, so hard for you after all you have been through already. I think about you often and I'm sending all the positive thoughts and healing energy I can. Much love to you. Julesx

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  4. carry on being brave, best wishs tina

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  5. You are in my heart. Thank goodness for Tony and the girls. Love to you. Norma, xo

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  8. Dear Jill,
    You have been through so much for a long time, and I'm sorry to hear all of this. May God be with you right now, dear. Your husband and daughters are very special, indeed. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

    Love,
    ~Sheri

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  9. Dear Jill praying hard for you. Hold on to that courage.

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  10. Jill, We haven't heard from you for a while. Just want you to know that you are still so very much in my thoughts, as is your family. Love and prayers, Erica

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  11. Lovely to hear from you Gill! I so admire your attitude - keep hanging in there and treat every day as precious. Sending you love and continued courage!
    Suzy

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