Getting used to a different life.

Since my cancer was first diagnosed I have had to face many changes in my life.I was sure it was only something temporary and after several chemo sessions it would be gone and life resumed as it was before. I now know I will have paliative care for the rest of my life. I found it difficult to accept partly because I feel I have little control over anything,I get extremly tired,the side effects of the chemo can make me nervous about going out and I try to get out of doing so whenever I can , I know its  rediculous and unfair  for Tony.My hair is growing back but where as I was blonde and straight it is now a mix of white, grey, blonde and curly.When I catch sight of myself in the mirror I  can't believe its me  . I am so very glad to have good friends who call in when they can and often we end up laughing about things.A very necessary tonic.