Wednesday, 18 January 2012
The cover for my latest journal
I have just finished this cover and am pleased to have done so. I long to take online classes but the internet connection here is extremly slow when I can connect to it. Most of all I would have liked to take these two, Madness and mess and Nellie Wortman's at creativeworkshops.I have tried downloads and can bare the stop start if they are short but otherwise it's hopeless. So I made myself sit down and and work out how to do it. I made endless mistakes but think I am getting there.
I am very glad to have a blog and to look at all the other brilliant blogs. Last year I nearly stopped mine ,I had months of awful depression at about this time of year and it paralized me in many ways. The one thing I did do was, I suppose ,hide in my workroom and continue making things. I eventually had to see a doctor and take lots of pills ,I still take some but was told as it has been a reoccuring theme in my life its about unresolved grief and I have to try and comes to terms with some of it. I had at first no idea how to do this but it suddenly came to me I will do a journal of the worst things that have happened. It will be just for me,so I will be able to write completly freely and maybe I will get to understand more and go from there. I have made myself be more sociable even though it was so hard sometimes but it has made a difference.I just hope hope hope it won't be as bad again.